Here's a story of a girl,
Living in the lonely world,
A hidden note, A secret crush,
A little boy who talks too much.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
And when you smile I check you out,
But you don't even know my name,
You're too busy playing games,

And I want you too know,
If you lose your way,
I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes,
Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip,
If I say hello,
Will you notice me?


PROFILEY

Jaslyn Ang
Hougang Secondary School
3E1 (2010)
Red Cross

EXITSY

Angie
Alvin
Bernice
Joey
Laura
Marcus
Melissa
Potato Peepos
See Miang
Li Ling
HSRCY

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Jun 5, 2010
2:18 PM

Day 1
Games carried out and venting.Honestly speaking, the venting for my group in the first day was not my expectation to them,n i did some talking(scolding) to them,hoping to see more improvement from them. Teach cadets evacuation, abit rush but nvm cos they put in effort in my lesson.night, having bbq and confidence walk. During the BBQ,Winnie, Laura, Bernice n I went to the classroom to get some things but the light is off at that staircase,we are freaked out n hold each other hand just to get through it.Then,Winnie n I wanted to go toilet,but too scared to go,struggled for some time. :PQian Wen and i waiting at atrium organising that station.It make me feels happy and relief seeing juniors trying their best and work as a team when its already quite late,11 plus.it think...After that,debrief being carried out to them after their bath n it ended quite late too,i can see that they are tired yet doing their best! After they gone to bed, Miss Lim and Miss Tey had a long debrief for NCOs,then we go for our shower, as the toilet is in auto system,we bathed halfway n the light went off,a few of us panic,luckily Bernice (i think) managed to make the light on again.(while typing this, think of one incident,quite funny but its a secret)When to 3e1 classroom,getting ready on our sleeping bag ready to sleep while Qian Wen n Jia Qi still making changes to the proposal.By the time we sleep, its already 3am.

Day2
Amazing Race, Yee En n I in charge in the evacuation station,judging the way they carried out the evacuations skills we teach ytd,i can see that they learn it seriously and my effort is not wasted.I so proud of them,some of them can even do it correctly in less the 15mins :D Next,the cadtes carried out their rehearsal practise,feel quite guilty that i can't be there when they practise their performance,luckily,Winnie helped me and told me that they improved a lot. :D I know it cos i was at the courtyard (outside classroom) and i can heard them singing! Good Job!
Yee En,Cassandra,Wen Xin,Kenneth n I was preparing for the campfire with the help of a Sir.Thanks to the 3 of them,taking the initiative to help us for the preparation of the fire.Its actually my first experience doing this n we need to learn how to let the fireball slide along the wire from 3rd storey to the fire pit.the rehearsal was quite successful as the fire ball landed on the pit,both of us was feeling quite stress as the sir say,one mistake made will cause the comp fire to be destroyed,eg,one wrong cut on the wire,the fire ball will dropped itself anywhere n the whole thing will be ''gone''The Sir also said that it actually need 10 ppl with his standard to carry out this,but only Yee En n I was doing the most critical n important steps while the Sir was at the pit giving us signals for us to carry out,both of us were feeling excited yet stress n scared.The campfire started, n I help Miss Lim to light on the fire ball next Yee En is supposed to cut off the correct wire but the scissors broke,luckily Miss Lim was calm enough to cut the wire although the scissors spoilt.I did know it but an' help her as i was extinguish the fire.Unfortunately,the fireball did noe land on the pit n the Sir managed to settled the problem while i rush to the courtyard assisting him, i was quite shocked cos the rehearsal was successful n we didn't expect this to happen.Next,4 of us was controlling the fire,adding firewood n kerosene with the help of the Sir while the campfire was being carried out. We skip our dinner and headed to the reception after the campfire cos we were so hungry. Then,the Sir helped clear up n had a short debrief from him.As usual,we had debrief from Miss Lim n Miss Tey while the cadets gone to bed,and debrief from our seniors...We sleep at 1am plus nearly 2am and i can't sleep for the whole night,hands and legs are aching.Midnight,my left hand super pain n it swollen,Bernice know that n i can't sleep due to the pain.Luckily,my hand was fine in the morning :D

Day 3
Clearing up the red cross room after playing water bombs.It was fun seeing them playing the water bombs jia ying ma'am poured water towards we,i was all wet,but the first thing i do,was take out my phone wiping it dry with winnie n qian wen shirt.LOL Next,jia ying ma'am scolded the juniors with their eyes closed n the NCOs with jis ying ma'am signals, poured bucket off water at them n they were quite shocked. :p We had so much fun!Then, clearing up the place n debrief with prizes given out to the group n some juniors before the last debrief by Miss Lim n Miss Tey.After that,i rushed to the main gate cos my mum was waiting there for quite a time...

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May 16, 2010
12:25 AM

Finally changed a new blog skin with the help of my sis cos i dunno.hehe...Exam finally over but worried with my results hope that everything will turn out right.Its the start of a new day cos it 12.24am now,still not in bed yet.nvm i can sleep late, but dark circles will be back...i remember i sleep at 4am last week doing math,super tiring but with the accompanied of music, i can survive!I think i had the bad habit sleeping late now days, haiz,i noe this is bad,:( But it better than last week burning midnight oil studying, latest i sleep at 2am studying for physics cos i dun understand sia.(yawn) tried le... got to sleep noe,bb!

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Jan 16, 2010
8:58 PM

Nothing much to post, went tuition today wif my bro, sis n kai...yesterday is a terrible day, dun wish to talk abt it anymore,i afraid i would lose control again.Anyway, i just change my music, it really very, super nice!Hope u guys enjoy it! i must admit that sec 3 life is super stress, dun blame me if i become different cos i choose to keep it all to myself, i felt that it is actually a way to protect myself.Since i had nothing much to talk abt,i would briefly talk abt my trip to thailand 2 or 3 months ago,5 days 4 night.

i remember we reach there quite late and had dinner at abt 11pm sccording to s'pore time cos it is 1 hr earlier there.We shop outside our hotel and buy lots of things,then return back to hotel after that.Very happy to found out that we are able to watch mtv and korea variety show in the hotel,haha.actually there is 2 room for my family and ah di, but we find our room is very big so we decided to squeeze together in 1 room cos we are somehow scared.i sleep in the middle of my mum and sis,my bro sleep on the single bed beside my sis, ah di sleep on the single bed below me.quite complicated cos i dunno how to decrible but ah di and my bro formed a L shaped.my father sleep beside the door.the room had 2 doors, 1 is the main one and the other is the room one.i can actually say thet the room is so big that it has a living room seperated by the room door.Forget it if u dun understand cos as i said earlier,i dunno how to describe.

I juz talk abt the fun and funny part of this trip.Second day,ah di tell me that my legs keep touching his butt when i sleep,but i totally had no idea abt it maybe i was fighting in my dreams,lol.OH! almost forget to say who else is wif us on this trip,my first uncle(ah bei) ,first aunt (ah mi),third aunt, chai ling and my grandma.We went to temples n shopping centres there which closed at 8pm everyday sia,so early.my sis n I brought 2 SS501 huge posters that cost $4 n ah di brought SNSD n 2pm i think, my bro brought some too, i think is SNSD.We were acting crazy lor.ah di suddenly run towards a shop and that place is very big,my dad,third aunt n my grandma walk their own way but we managed to find them.Okay,back to the point,of course we follow ah di that 4 of us ran super fast without informing the adults lucky chai ling follow us.i almost screamed whrn i saw the korean posters,so surprised to see that it is actually selling there cos i wanted to but their limited edition there but no stock. 4 of us became very excited the moment we flipped every single posters, then chai ling is like dunno wht going on.haha,i laugh when i think ant 4 of our reaction.

The second last day of the trip is chai ling birthday,so we planned to give her a surprised birthday party.As usual,chai ling bring 4 of us shop around the shopping center while the adults shop their own one.Each of us buy our clothes n she helped us to bargain n i must say that her bargain skill is quite gd.Thanks to her, we enjoyed the trip very much so 4 of us plan out a mission.My sis and i will try to lead her to other direction cos ah di n my bro came out a lame excuese telling her that they wan to but some shorts for my bro,luckily chai ling believed them. the boys will buy her a bag cos we noticed that she look at that bag for quite a long time,try, try ,try then put it back again.While my sis n i carry out the mission,i saw ah di bargaining with the seller then chai ling went to that direction so i stop her n tell her that we walk there already, lucky she belived me again.

Back to hotel before going out again, 4 of us were in the room wrapping ah mi n our present that we wanna give her.we were in a rush so all of us were very panicked,one moment we can't find the scorch tape,one moment we can't find the evelope.lol.she keep rushing us cos we need to go to another place, in order to get things done, i lied to her that ah di is having his busniess in the toliet so we need to wait for him.When we are ready,i get out of the room n talk very loudly that the room is very smelly so that she can hear although it is not true.At night, my mum n i went to ordered the cake for her surprise birthday.Finally,the day has come,we were playing cards wif her in the middle of the night n some of the adults are asleep cos we had to wait until 12 midnight then we can celebrate.Last 5 minutes before 12am, we wake all the adults up n of course we, kids, were entertaining har waiting for the cake.It is quite funny cos 4 of us cannot talk abt the the party in front of her so we were having eye signals.my mum n the other adult knock the door so ah di went to open the door, n i closed the light.HAPPY BIRTHDAY, all of us shout the moment we waited so long had finally arrived haha.i can't described the atmosphere but she looked surprised n touched,then she say she knew something was wrong when 4 of us were in the room taking such a long time to open the door for her to come in,actually we were hiding the presents n we dunno where to keep,first under the pillow then under the blanket then under the table.She also saw the note write to her on the table before the party,i must admit that it is my mistake to left it there so i came out a stupid reason telling her that i anyhow write
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After the celebration,she sleep beside me on my single bed n my sis on the sofa beside ah di n my bro.cos we had to wake up at 5 or 6 in the morning so we had only 3 hrs to sleep.Finally, rwached s'pore in the afternoon n had our lunch wif ah di parents n us.We were all very tired so all of us sleep after we had our bath.but i sleep the latest cos i pasted up my posters when they are all asleep,too excited...

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Jan 1, 2010
10:23 PM

Ytd had bbq at melissa house,although i left earlier..8 of us,alvin,melissa,marcus,una,kai,sis,bro n me had a great time together.We went to the ''ship'' playground for catching n ice n water but we made too much noise causing disturbance to the resident.haiz,feel sorry for them to hear our screaming late at night 11plus.guess what! police came sia,give us warning then said happy new year to us.i wanted to laugh at marcus when the police said ''tell the spiderman to come over'', but i hold it cos their face look serious.

One week ago,went to chalet and had a fun time too! play monkey with cousin,nephew,niece..then all of us were too high trying to act funny in front of the camera dancing 'ring ding dong' 'sorry sorry' 'am i that easy'...although i felt quite paiseh,thinking of it now but i had to admit that i had a fun time cos i was the ''dancer'' too..

Next day after chalet,went to malaysia,the same place as before.A trip that all relatives will go together since i was young, full of memories.i remember my grandfather will sit at a corner enjoying the fireworks played by us...Althought the house is built so called ''on the sea'' but it is a place for us to forget our stressful life in the cities.The bbq food is super delicious, i miss the chicken wings cos the auntie made it so tasty so different from what i cook (mine is uncooked inside the chicken wing)Then, we play mahjong although i didn't,sing karaoke together,chatting for quite long i think cos we all laugh until stomach pain.

Went to bed at 3 or 4 plus in the morning but all of us woke up at 7am because of the prawn crackers and morning breakfast.6 of us, una, melissa, marcus, bro, sis and me sleep together on 1 double bed and 2 single bed.At first i was sleeping beside marcus but he keep hitting me so i sleep in the middle of una and melissa.Feel so sorry for melissa and my sis cos i keep squeezing melissa so she had to squeeze my sis hence both of them did not sleep well.In the morning when we are about to leave the house,one of my headset cannot function well so i suddenly think of the USB! i use the dvd player to play my mp3 songs,the song that will made us high ''love like this''.But it was too late sia, had to leave after finishing the song.Why didn't i think of that earlier?Haiz..

Went to shopping mall after our lunch, my mum brought nail polish from one of the shop beside the shop lee min ho advertise,forgot the name of the shop.I went in the shop and i remember looking at their skincare products , i think it is expensive, a small bottle cost hundred buck.On the way back to singapore i realise that the skincare products i saw earlier is advertised by kim hyun joong! thinking of that,i don't find the products expensive anymore..hehe. My sis and i each brought a magazine of SS501 and kim hyun joong,so handsome sia...

After i reach singapore that night, i had to revise on the evacuation notes cos i had a evacuation test the next day morning so i woke up at 7am getting ready but almost late cos i too tired to get up from my bed. Hopefully, i pass the test! It end at about 6pm then after that went to hougang point with bernice and qian wen to buy plaster for the preparation for sec 1 orientation.Reach home about 7 plus.i counted the number of sleep i had on those two days, can't believe sia,8 hours of sleep only and my eye look like panda's one.But i can still hold it leh for two days, maybe because i am still young... jkjk... lol :P the trip will considered a successful one if ah ding is going with us,singing with us and play true or dare...Such a pity, he did'nt come.I believe we will have more fun with him around, don't you guys agree?

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Oct 25, 2009
5:16 PM

A series of SS501,Paradise (boys over flower),DBSK and Big Bang songs appear on the channel V.Too excited leh,the mv super good especially is the last part when hyun joong dance and sing at the last part of the song... :D :D :D i am like a mad person sitting in front of the tv and sing along them, so stupid when i think of it now...

This week nothing much to talk about,ytd when to 4th aunt house and melissa house,playing mahjong for about 2 hours then i get distracted by the mv of ''a song calling for you'' by SS501 so we paused for a moment to watch the mv before continuing... last wed i think, spent about 30 mins doing the survey about triplets by the doctor who come to my house,then have dinner with my grandmother before seeing my cousin bathing...very cute leh!

Ytd watch the solo collection of SS501,the story is quite nice with their good acting skills.I download the story,total 3 parts very nice,i recommend you all to watch it.Hyun Joong acting very good,he act as a fierce but devoted man in the story.Quite romantic but is a bit violence cos they fight and use guns cos 2 members of SS501 including hyun joong is fighting for a woman but there was this cruel guy who has scars all over his face kill them.Very sad sia, when i saw hyun joong kanna kill and with blood all over his wound,struggling on the ground.His acting very good leh as if he is really in pain.Very touching with his love to the woman when he tried to save her even when he left with his last breath.

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Sep 22, 2009
6:31 PM

Smile on my face,tears in my heart.Yesterday,facing the same problem again,i can't control my emotions again.Lots of memories when both of us are young and now,the problem both of us have, keep appearing in my mind.Why things change completely over these few years?how i wish the relationship between him and i will remain close as before.Yesterday,both of us take a step to solve this problem.But i dunno why my tears keep falling,i can never control it whenever i face this problem.It is like there is a knot in my bottom of my heart.the one that i had been hiding all these years.I know that maybe facing such problem,i will be very fragile.This weakest part of me had been exposing to them when i face this problem.

It seems that one can be look strong from its appearance but will be very fragile when it comes to the secret in one heart.I spent the whole night thinking why i had been avoiding and avoiding.I finally has a solution, i am very afraid of getting hurt again,it will double the pain in my heart. I came out with one sentence to explain this''first you gave me hope,next u made me hurt''The pain in my heart i experienced from this sentence is ten times hurtful.Getting hurt for so many times,i am lacking of courage to face the problem...The pain i had for these few years in my heart. it is too serious from the hurt i receive these few years, it had always been there,the one that made my heart bleds. I am losing confidence to face this problem.It is too painful as the pain increases when the time passed.

I cannot hide the pain any longer...Yesterday, before i sleep, i had told my sis about some of my feeling this few years.This is the first time that i talk to someone about my true feeling.I guess it is the time for me to let go now.It is also the first time when i talk about it and tears kept falling down.My pillow is wet as i kept thinking and thinking last night.I believe that my eye is swollen today but i cannot avoid it. The weakest part of me that i had been hiding this few years are exposed to my sis.Maybe is because i cannot handle it anymore and had to say it all out.However, i hope that the weakest part of myself will remain a secret between u n i.please do not betray the trust i had to you...

I agree with what my literature teacher say''people cry when they revealed their weakest part but will feel embarrassed to let others to see the weakest part of you'' it is certainly true as i had experienced it by myself...

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Aug 27, 2009
6:48 PM

Sorry for not updating my blog.Finally i has the courage to face everything that i had been running away from it all these years.i believe that everyone including me has a weakest point or matter that do not want to face it or talk about it...i can understand the feelings when there is the time when we cannot control our emotion beacause it is the time when we are facing the thing that we had been avoiding.i knew that it will not be a easy process to gat over it, we or i had to struggle and find our courage or solution to solve it.i know that it is too obivious for my frinends to know that i had been crying because my eyes was too swollen on monday n i kept thinking about the advices,what to do next,things that were happening...that night is the night when i had to admit on my true feeling and my weaknesses,i spent the whole night thinking n thinking.i believe that what i can do now is to try my best to solve the problem,step by step i knew that i am reaching the solution closer n closer,that is what i am doing now.before i sort out my thoughts,i was wondering how i face them,but i knew that i had to overcome it n work harder.i know that some of us including me usually had to put up a strong front in front of others,but deep inside our heart we are actually the most fragile ones,this is a normal emotions that we had been facing.that is when i show my weakest emotion on sun night...i had faith in myself that i will surely get over this n find solution on it!lets all of us work harder to it!

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